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Blog 14: Being confident

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 06:34:22 +0000

My friends always have told me (well actually my mom and dulce) that I am conceited; in which I strongly disagree. I don’t see how I am conceited. I define being conceited as one who thinks too much of himself or herself. One that gloats about how good they are, also they tend be very arrogant and there is no arguing with them about what they think is right. I am confident that I can do certain things better than dulce for example, I tell her I’m better at parking and driving than she is because she was never taught. Me on the other hand my brothers showed me how to drive and how park and in which way you move the steering wheel. I have been driving a little bit longer than she has; she was given directly her permit without even being taught one thing about it. I am confident that I can do certain things, I am confident in myself and that just how I carry myself. Before I wouldn’t have been anywhere close to the confidence I have now, I used to have really bad low self-confidence and low self-esteem. Now I feel that I am a much happier person if in think better and more positive of myself. Thinking that you can before hand might just help you accomplish what you want to do. Once you believe in yourself you will carry yourself in a better way and be to succeed more in life than you wouldn’t have thought before.

Blog 13: OBAMA!

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 06:19:32 +0000

I myself did not vote, but im not getting into details to why, my concern is to why so many people are being so stereotypical about him. That because he is black that’s why all the black people voted for him. I think that is one of the most racial comments I have ever heard. And also some people say he is Muslim when he really isn’t. I just really seems as if all the people are all ignorant and niece to think that. In my opinion I the reason to why I didn’t vote was because I really don’t see how much one was better than the other. They both have flaws that allot of people disagree on, but they wont see they flaws of the candidate they are running for. If I would have voted honestly it would have been for Bema simply for the fact that it is something new out of the ordinary, he signifies change in today’s corrupt society. That’s also why I didn’t vote everything is so corrupt, my vote probably would have voted. No matter what we say on the here in Texas, this state always remains democratic. I don’t think our voted don’t really matter, due to the electoral colleges. I just hope that since he won he can really say what he means and become one pf the United States best presidents up there will Washington, teddy Roosevelt. Hopefully he will bring change to out nation and not give us bullshit like the other one did!

Blog 12: Gas!

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 06:02:19 +0000

Thank God gas has finally gone down! I thought there for a moment that we weren’t going to be able to go out much due to the gas is so freaking high. Now its getting to the point was it has lowered almost a whole 2 dollars. What 20 dollars used to give me is more like what 5 dollars give me. When I first started noticing the gas going down I was getting so excited because I thought it was just something temporarily, and I even wanted to take a picture of it because I thought this would never happen again and that I should take a picture of it before it goes back up. I don’t even own a car but when I do have to drive either my moms or dads car I always have to put gas in it just for using it. It is so money coming out of our pockets for gas it was ridiculous. My mom doesn’t even a job and we struggling with all the past due payments that my father can never make because he says ” I haven’t finished saving yet”. That’s what he always says and he says that every month, it takes him supposedly more than two months. But that’s another story that I do not want to talk about. I just hope that this gas can remain like this but yet again how long odes a beautiful day last? Not very long so I think everyone should go and stock up n the gas just in caser they want to make it go up

Blog 11: Have to say bye!

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 05:48:53 +0000

In a few days my brother is going to have to leave me and I’m going to be sad once again because my family is splitting up even more than it already is. Even though he and I don’t get along much, we still love each other and still look out for one another. I wish he wouldn’t have to go. I wish I could go for him and take care all the things he needs to do for him but from what learned about my brothers is that they need to learn from their won mistakes. I love them to death but they always have it easy and its going to start being harder for them now. I hope he does it ok where he’s going and that he could put up with it and pray to God for help to be able to watch over him. My brothers are all very different from one another; the youngest boy though is the one closest to age to me. I have spent more time with him than any of my other siblings, so no matter what I will always miss him. All I can do now is hope for the best and just hope that he will be ok and that I will see him again soon! I am sure he will miss me no matter what her says, they all miss me

Blog 10: I hate liars!

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 05:39:45 +0000

One of my greatest pet peeves is liars. I can’t stand when someone lies, I mean don’t get me wrong I have lied before, but in my cases they brought me nothing but bad luck when I did. I occasionally lie about where I am going for a few hours but once I returned I let them know where I had went. the only reason why I would lie about it was because I knew they wouldn’t want to hear the truth while I was there in your face and I’m going to do it regardless I just don’t want a bunch angry mad all the time though. Sometimes I catch people in a lie, for example, the guy I used to talk to he hated it when I would talk to other guys and he couldn’t hear me talking to a friend so just so he would get too mad I would say it was my sister at the time or my mom. Then of course afterwards I would tell him and then I would have to explain myself to why I did it. But I never kept it from him. I always told guys from the get-go that I talk to allot of guy friends and that I had more guy friends than I do female friends. Of course being men that they are, they would get mad and storm off, but at least I don’t have to worry if he will find out or not, told him if he liked it or not.

Blog 9: Stressed

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 05:24:08 +0000

I think I am starting to go bald with all the freaking stress have going on. And it not as if they are huge dilemmas it’s just that I stress over allot of insignificant things that usually wouldn’t bother anyone else but would bother me. I try not to take things too seriously but of course they end up getting to me anyways. Every time I want to pick up my hair, brush it, and even during the showers big wads of hair come out ass if someone stuck hair in there and are taking it back. The biggest issue I have on my shoulders above anything else ibis school. Sometimes don’t have everything done on time, which means I have to stay up till late just finish the work that is due the next day. I think I got that from my mother because she makes everything her problem as well when it comes to her family. When I used to be in high school, after school I would take a long hot shower and it would make it feel as if my shoulders weren’t as heavy as they once where. No I am trying to get things together and make it work mainly for my own benefit. I refuse to fail and I refuse to be like my mother always says my sister Lucy. I know what I am capable of and of what I can do, and I now even though school might be difficult at times, but I know I could get through it with hard work just like my car. I can get it with hard work. It’s a weird motivation but it really works when it comes to me.

Blog 8: Proving her wrong.

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 05:11:29 +0000

My mother constantly aggravates me with nagging that I will end up like my sister and that i will never get anywhere in life because of what i do now. She thinks that going out is no life for a girl my age. In others words she just doesn’t want me going period! The whole reason i came to college was to not only better my life as well as my non deserving family but to also prove my mother wrong. She always says “Your going to end up pregnant by some lowlife good for nothing, and your just going to suffer”. I refuse to ever be compared to my sister after i accomplish my goals. I know i will graduate, without having any children, without getting married, and for any other reason my mother believes that i wouldn’t ever graduate. I want to able to live in a luxurious apartment by myself, with a nice car, and a great job. I know that i could get through it and with determination im sure i can reach my goal. I just need to keep all the negative feedback i get from them. I know my mother says it for my best but it seems more like just to insult me. But i will never give her the satisfaction of her being right. I will grow up with a great job and living in a nice place just me, myself, and i; with no worries of how to pay the bills or how to make ends meet.

Blog 7: I NEED A CAR!

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 04:56:00 +0000

Ever since I can remember I have noticed that the boys in my family were always handed everything and the girls had to bust their butts for what we wanted. My brothers got the cars they wanted and now that I want a car they tell me “no you have to buy it yourself”! No matter what I tell them on how it isn’t fair that the boys got their cars for free, it’s as if I was speaking to air. No one ever listens or cares. I always have to be bumming rides off of people and it makes me feel bad at times. I wish I could go where I want and when I wanted to. I would drive everywhere and anywhere my friends wanted me to just because they have taken me everywhere with them and have helped me out when I have needed someone to give me a lift, especially Dulce and my friend Amanda. The bad side to me getting a car is that I know I would never be home. I will most likely stay out all the time and be out longer than usual. But I have decided that I don’t want to be given a car, I want to earn it and value what I would have beaten myself up for. Its better when you work for what you want than it to be handed it to you. Sure who doesn’t like to be given things on a silver platter, but I never have and I have noticed that I will appreciate those things so much more if I worked for them.

Blog 6: Friends?! Pphhhfff yea right!

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 04:40:43 +0000

Over time what I have learned is that no one really has any friends at all, just more like acquaintances. My oldest brother has taught me allot about that over time. He has always told me “{never to listen to what others have to say about their opinions, its just like I said it their opinions and they should really keep them to themselves”. He always told do not ever trust anybody they will always end up dong you wrong and if you cant trust your own family ( which I don’t) then what makes you think you can trust someone whoa complete stranger and not of your blood? The few friends I consider to have are very opposite to each other. One is very girly and ditsy, but at the same time loud and could say things about you to others that you don’t people to find out. Another almost always seems as is she is lost. She’s sometimes confusing and won’t get what you mean allot of the time. She takes a while to process what you tell her in order for her to understand. But other than that she great to be with except when she drink, ugh! I can’t stand her! And then there’s Roci. She is the most interesting creature I have ever met! She is very particular with herself and very defensive. She is very honest, rarely lies, and will keep all your secrets. What I absolutely hate about her is her lack of be there for you. She’s basically there when she can, which you can’t really blame her because like she says she “busy 24/7″! So no matter how many times we have argued, we still manage to talk again and forgive each other until I get mad again. I am not going to lie that I don’t cause allot of the arguments because I have. I get mad very quickly and I am not patient what’s so ever. But I admit it! This is something she will never do, admit when she is wrong. No matter what that little girl does, I will still be there for her and love her like my sister because that’s really how we always are fighting.

Blog 5: My mom is nuts!

amreyes06 — Thu, 06 Nov 2008 04:19:38 +0000

I always tell people my mom says the craziest things, but no one ever believes me. When they see y mom they think she is cute, small, and adorable. Hell no! She is no where close to any of that if you ask me. I grew up hearing from her that “only prostitutes go out at night” and she would only say it because that when I used to go out. She would accuse me of being a prostitute, of being pregnant (I am just fat, duh!) and that I am just like my sister. My sister has been in and out of jail, lives in Mexico and has tree kids from two different dads. But only because we have to same response to some of the things she asks us, she assumes I will end up like her. I have already gotten so used to her that I just agree. What else could I do? My mother has always been the type that she is right and that you are wrong, well unfortunately I was born with that same trait of hers and I think the same. I have just grown to ignore the craziness she says sometimes and just not talk to her too much. I have noticed that when my mother and I have a conversation, we always end up in an argument on that is was my entire fault. I am just like “what ever mom, ok”! Don’t get me wrong I love my momma; she’s the greatest at many things just not at listening and paying attention.